Round the corner

I find the acne medicated care advertisement highly disturbing. The pimple swells up into the large balloon and takes the guy up into the air. To those going into marketing… seriously. Anyway that advertisement reminded me that I have to go see the dermatologist ar DR-X. They’ve moved to Tong building, going to check out the new place.
Short break down of the long weekend

So friday was gym at Safra with Ben. Headed to his place for lunch. His mother makes nice laksa! After lunch we went to hang out at parkway and bumped into an old TK friend Maybe this is how worklife will be on weekends, hard work during the weekdays followed by a relaxing weekend where can I can do whatever I want, whenever.

Saturday was rollar blading with a fellow easty… It’s been a long time since I had such an awesome time. I fell once on my ass =( while coming down the slope, kinda got too excited that I was going down the slope haha. And when I fell, he fell haha sorry pal! My bad.

So today was a pretty much any normal sunday. Just that my dad could not meet me because he had some meeting after his service. Now, its the television and I, pretty laid-back day

I am pretty jaded that I would not be able to go to Tioman with Mindy and friend, and Huimin. I will be posted to Jurong for the week. =’( which sucks. The only thing I’ve been to Jurong for, was ice-skating and the birdpark. Oh well, someone told me to get to know the west better and then I will know that the East is not that great. HAHA! You know who you are.

I am pretty excited planning for exchange. For now its deciding where to head. Countries shortlisted include Europe, UK, Korea and maybe Chile. But maybe I’ll save South America for my grad trip. Canada and NY sounds cool too. Haha exchange first!

Hopefully I meet some awesome people to tour with. And yes, I still kick myself for not applying to Emory for lame reasons hurhur!! Oh well. North America is not going to disappear. If anything, their currency may just depreciate. hehe can shop more!

Well, 2 years have come and gone. Now its just another 2 years. Time really flies. I am back to where I started. I guess my mindset has slowly converted back to the time when I was ignorantly blissful. Single. It took one _____ to turn my life upside down and made me realise I was lonely. And that being lonely is a pathetic thing. Although I do look back and ponder, I don’t look back with any sort of regrets or yearning for things to come back. I live life with no sort of guilt and this betters my pursuit of God.

There is one thing that can’t be taken from me

The love of christ.

 

And I would not trade that for anything, for it is everything

Sentosa next week! Hot hot hot. I think I have rekindled my love for the sun.

Rollar blading gives you nice abs. Maybe I should consider investing in a pair

Love

Love can’t be rekindled

because

True love never dies

Somebody tell me why.

Don’t look back in anger

 

Time is all I have. Time is all I need.

To make something out of my life.

 

Maybe things would be even better than I imagine.

Time will tell all.

 

Dear God,
where to now?

I write of bitterness

It’s been quite some time since I made the effort to blog. I realized it’s been 5 months since this year has begun with the most “brilliant start”. 5 months passed so much faster without him and I can’t really remember what happened anymore. Sure, snippets of memories paved the lanes of certain places. Sure, certain objects served as reminders of my stupidity. But at the end, they all don’t matter anymore. I don’t get what people mean when they say cherish all those memories bla bla. I don’t cherish things that don’t matter and mean anything.

You can take back your memories
they’re no good to me- Gives you hell

But one truth I constantly use to console myself, was that my notion was right at the start. Love is like any other subject or matter of this planet, you have to use your mind in addition to your heart. I was just rather unlucky to have met a person capable of such great persuasion. I can’t say whether it was love or not. Because, I don’t know what love is.

You made no fool of me. But a big fool out of love.

So I guess, I was played like a song. A sweet melody, which ended with solitude and grief. But, I guess I wish him happiness and love. That’s what they always say right? Chances of crossing paths have been greatly reduced at least during the summer and I shall be quick to claim all credit for my very careful avoidances of the gym. Yes, I used to gym regularly. Which has led me to seek creative methods to lose weight. Yes, I am fat.

At the end of the day, I have to stop letting this affect my life. It hurt, it really did. But like a man, I have to suck it up and move on with my life. And this has led me to think about my attitude for the pass 2 years. I had not worked hard and my unimpressive grades can only be attributed to that. I need to turn my life around and like how this earth begun, God shall be my alpha.

I always look at what others had. Good looks, stellar grades, out of the world music skills. While these aren’t material goods, they still fall under the category of what the world values. And I have to, and I will learn that this is not what God values. Its so easy to say it and so difficult to comprehend it.

My priorities right now
1) God
2) Friends- in the midst of repairing a friendship
3) Music

I think I have to focus on becoming a better person (more like Jesus ideally). And drawing out what I want to do, with God’s guiding hand. But I believe that God gives each individual a mind to think of what they like to do. I want to do something I love. I doubt it is going to be auditing, but honestly I don’t find it that bad. Even the horror stories of pulling 3ams during peak period fail to act as a solid deterrence. I just want to work hard, really hard, to make-up for the last 2 years.

These few months, I have been walking by faith. I did many things on impulse but I guess, it was the first time I feel like I could trust God. He carried me through the storm. Through it all.

And maybe it is time I forgave myself. Oh well. But sometimes before you decide to do something, you have to start doing it. And strangely, after I embarked on the road of forgiveness even before I have decided to,  it seems to be going pretty well.

Worries
1) Life
2) Life
3) Life

I think life is scary. Okay will continue this another day! Bedtime =)

The only sweet stuff I go for are sweets. High in glucose

Crap im putting on weight =( I wana be stick thin again.