Sometimes I wonder what I have given thus far is really my best. And sometimes when you ask questions like that, only you yourself present the answer.
So have I done my best?
I am not too sure about that. The recent events have gotten me thinking. Maybe all my efforts have been pure slip-shot and mediocre. Applying the concept of reaping what you sowed. Insufficient effort can only mean average results. I guess after failing to achieve my medical ambitions, working hard (at something in a different scope) is something tough and undesirable and trying becomes a hassle. A hassle. That’s what it is.
So if you bother to back track my blog, you would realize, I spend too much time pondering about life rather than living it. 2 years of my prime. I am losing my sparkle totally. haha.
What is my fate?
In God I trust? I can’t say for sure yet. To admit that would be to step up to great faith, something I am afraid once again I can’t live up to.
But perhaps, my failures stem from unrealistic goals- impossibly high goals which are a total mismatch to my ability. At least that would answer lots of questions.
And no I am not being emo. I just get irritated when people tell me my blog is emo. I just like giving things a thought and expressing it via blog. Got a problem? hehe.
Now into my 3rd year, where should I head? Without any liabilities I am free to spread my wings and head anywhere I wana.
Okay done with audit readings and preparation. Spent the whole day preparing for tomorrow’s class.
Grasping on to the spirit of excellence, I shall do my best and let God do the rest
Time would unfold, what I am to be
MEOW. Wish I was a cat.